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I hate people.
A lot.

People make me angry especially when they're cold or make no sense or several other things. Or when they're unreasonable. Like trolls. Damn freaking trolls. Or my grandmother. GRAGH.

I want to rip heads off right now. Gotta get my anger under control. LARPing this weekend will be great for relieving aggression. e_e; I hate morons. HATE. SEETHE. LOATHE.

It's even more aggrivating when I try to show people that I'm better now and willing to do things that I would normally do, unlike this entire last fucking year. This last year I've been ridiculous. I wouldn't ever deal with someone like how I've been for the past fucking year. But at least it's shown me who my real friends are and it's revealed SOME people to be shallow bastards or people who don't really give a rat's ass about me if I'm in a pissy mood.

Unfortunately it's also shown me of what prolonged aggression does to people, how it makes them fear you and recoil at the slightest sign of trouble. Nanbi doesn't count though xD She's always sorta wary. >> WITH REASON. D:< I WILL EAT HER. ALIVE. WITH HOTSAUCE AND SALT AND LEMONS AND ANYTHING THAT BURNS.

Yeah dA isn't about life problems, it's about art, well guess what. Get the hell over it, anyone who would complain. Art is about life and fantasies and opinions and all sorts of things. If you don't want to read it, then don't. Tough cookie for you. And if whomever wants to comment is just gonna bitch, they can piss off too. I don't care about anyone's opinion unless it's either respectful and/or constructive. Destructive comments about me or my art can go to hell. (Not that I've gotten many about my art, 'cause my friends are so silly as to think I'm any sort of decent D:< Jerks. Just kidding, I love you guys and you keep me going some days. )

Anyway </rant>

The school week starts tomorrow! Yaaaay! Not. x.x Gotta read a whole freaking act of Macbeth (nooooooo) and do math (NOOOOOOOOO) and my left thigh hurts like someone just went HYGRAAAAGGHHH *pulls and twists*
;.; Not fun. Ah well, I could take an asprin or something, but I seem to like the pain. I mean, as in, err-- not like I love pain or anything... It's tolerable. I figure it'll help me be empathetic with people as well. Sort of like a small trial. (At this point Derek's all YAY REI'S A GREAT PERSON--- NO DEREK D:< SHUT THE HELL UP. Stop putting me up when I need to be beaten down. >< "But you always beat yourself up--" NO. SHUT UP. D: )

Aaaaah LARPing was great. I got to beat people up and I was beaten up and it was just great. Feels awesome to be amongst a buncha geeks. << >> Makes me feel normal almost. Being around intelligence is GREAT. And wit! And imagination! Augh I could ramble. I was even tossed a coupla compliments. I felt a bit confident (something I seriously lack as some of you guys may or may not know) and had a lot of fun. Somma you guys got to hear me moan and groan about my aches and pains afterwards but hey, feels great to use my musckles. Yeeaaaaaaaah booiiii. <3

Oh! It turns out some of the people there are in college or have been and they're into... dun dun dun dun: Graphic design and programming! ! When I get the time next Saturday, I gotta talk with the one guy about graphic design and then to the other about programming. (Poor guy, he's all "hey look me up some time" but I was so tired that I forgot to get any information. *crimson with embarrassment* ><; Gotta see if I can get ahold of him soon.)

... *squeal*

Okay I just had to get a lot of that out of my head. xD

Have a great night, guys.